Dealing With Not Knowing What To Study In College
A couple weeks ago, I was sitting in a class in the Kelley School of Business at Indiana University that is designed to help Kelley students discover what they want to study at Kelley and do in their future careers. I was excited about the class going in since I really wasn’t sure where in business I wanted to be, but my optimism quickly faded.
We took several personality tests that were designed to give us business-specific career suggestions. My top results were, by the tests’ standards, not even close to perfect matches for me. I tried not to let that sway me, so I went through and read all of the countless possible careers. None of them seemed even close to something to which I would enjoy committing the rest of my life.
At this point, I sit in all of my business classes wondering whether or not it is really worth my time to be there. Everyone around me seems to be keenly interested in the coursework and generally excited to be there, while I feel almost alienated by my own indecision.
Honestly, I really should have seen it coming. I started applying to business schools in the beginning of my senior year but I could never give a solid reason as to why I was applying. Looking back, I guess it was because it seemed safe and because I thought I could be good at it. There was never a moment for me that made me realize that I wanted to study business; it just kind of happened.
So now what? Great question. I’m fortunate enough to have 33 dual credits transfer over from my high school, so I have some time to deliberate, but sitting back and thinking about it doesn’t seem like a surefire way to solve this problem even though it’s just about the only thing I can do. If only watching Netflix was a career.
It is, however, comforting to know that I’m not alone in this. I know that countless people, including my father, have had this problem before and ended up just fine, and I know that countless people are currently having this problem and they will end up just fine.
I had initially thought that I didn’t know anyone personally who was in the same boat as me. In fact, the first draft of this post stated that explicitly, but mere hours after I finished writing it, that changed. I was walking back to my dorm after working on a group business project with one of my group members, a girl named Gianna, and she asked what I planned on doing with my business career. I confessed that I didn’t even know if I wanted a business career, and she confessed the same. We both decided to go with business, and Kelley specifically, for the same reasons, and we both realized when we got here that maybe that wasn’t the best idea.
Though personally knowing someone who shares the same dilemma as me doesn’t do anything to help me decide what I want do with my life, it did add a sense of comfort because there was a real person that I knew that had no idea what to do in life, just like me. It was the first time that the fact that I wasn’t alone set in on me.
The best advice I can give is advice that has been given to me: try to find what makes you happy and see if you can run with it. Up to this point, business has been nothing but boring and I feel like I might hate any business job from the day I started.
The problem with people like me is we don’t know what makes us happy. The only thing I know is that I don’t know. And that’s perfectly okay, even though it may not seem like it.
If you’re reading this and you also have no idea what you want to do, just know you’re not alone, and everything will be okay. That was cheesy, I know. Just deal with it.
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